Fight

Fight today: H:comes down AFTER we all are finished eating (impeccable timing?) after asking him if he wants to eat and him affirming he does, he says I think I will send son E to the boys ranch Like G and V's boy who was addicted to meth and robbing neighbors.. (a reform type ranch where teenage boys, usually drug addicts and thieves and other law breakers are either sent by law enforcement or by parents as a last resort.... I say "your joking right? You want to send a kid whose main flaw is he's lazy and lacks discipline to be with near felons? I said are you willing to attend the meetings and learn what they require of the parents of these children? (I know from long convos with Vickie what is required,meetings and counseling etc...) he says are YOU willing to do as your told ...I responded NO ...then paused getting ready to add to it but before I can he jumps in and says "that's the crux of HIS problem !!!! YOU won't do as YOUR told ...I said if you would let me finish I was going to say "not if it means I'm told to handle all the interactions and meetings like you did with son A when we started having problems with him in high school.. We've been there and done that I'm not doing that again. So I continue to heat his food and take it out to the outside table ... I hang around in case he needs something and he looks me in the eye and says I had a dream about you last night ... I say "oh? " ( while maintaining eye contact something I've worked hard at maintaining in the last few years DAMN intimidation!!! He says "it wasn't good" I say "well dreams usually are one or the other" not caring either way and also knowing that the way he looked away he most likely was lying about ANY dream so he says "I think your keeping secrets again" I say " oh really?" btw its something he often says after I've been out lol ...so I just sit there not saying anything and he says "so?" well we all know the only response when one is NOT going to confess to the secrets they in fact HAVE is "so what?" ... Lol He starts in about you've been secretive before ...blah blah blah ...and I say "well that happened in 2007 so your just going to have to get over it like I did your dalliance with sheri which to this day you still insist was like petting a dog. (what he told me at the time I confronted him.) so let's me say this second life was like petting a virtual dog ... Get over it. I then said I don't know how you can call me diabolical and then come and get me from my bed to service you sexually, you've told me how repulsive I am to you yet you will still have sex with me? So he interrupts and says "well you wouldn't stay afterwards would you?" I said "why would I? You've made it clear for 25 years that your not interested in touching or interaction afterwards You just want to talk at me after your satisfied !!! " we then had the same convo about wife number 2 and him being deceiving back then (he of course didn't admit anything) he said "everything I've done here has been for you!!! With you in mind and these children...and the fact that you can't tell me what's most important to me speaks volumes I said "oh really? Then tell me please at this late date what it meant when we had four young children and you spent the majority of your time at a pool hall? I was too dumb to realize what it meant back then ...I'm sorry I grew up and finally understand that not only does a persons words have meaning but their actions usually mean much more than what their mouth says !!!" he said you didn't grow up you lost your innocence and you've become hardened and uncaring you have no appreciation for all I've provided for you ...I said and you have no appreciation for what you had in me and what you squandered...and with that I went into the house ...ending the convo.